after thought - mechanical

i prayed
i played
i did all possible
heard all plausible
and wish i
was mechanical
so that i
couldnt feel pain
that i had
couldnt blow tear
that i hold
coudnt see sunrise
could be more mechanical

what i had
was fantasy
a little more
of everything
but not enough
a little less
of nothing
but isnt there

compassion
confusion
too many option
but leaves no choice

i tried
i cried
i did all to fly
and wish i
was mechanical
so that i
could runaway
from generosity
could diffuse
by in guilt
couldn see sunrise
could be more mechanical

what i had
was used best
a small mistake
made me mess
a finale grand
of my life
but isnt here

sortsightness effects
as it rains on
as it fails on
could be more incomplete
could be more mechanical
its a deal,with the seal
will be more mechanical